the left handed guy

I think I wrote about him some years ago.

When blogging wasn't available yet.

He was the guy I liked sooo much at fourteen.He played basketball, he was great at math and he listens to Spandau Ballet.

He had a girlfriend and he thought I liked someone else.

At that time, I felt we were destined. Because fate had a thing for us. Even on the most mundane opportunities, we would see each other, or be given a chance to communicate.

It was the first time I felt kilig. Each conversation, I was so interested. First time I enjoyed talking to a person who isn't a girlfriend.

It went on for years, phone conversations turned into text messaging (nung nauso na siya). Half my mornings spent sending that "good morning text/quote/graphics" even with the network traffic.

I remember the feeling of secretly comparing him to a boyfriend I had, which made me end that relationship because I knew my heart belongs to someone else.

I liked him that much.

And I wouldn't forget the last long conversation we had when I was on vacation in the U.S.
We had a lot of things in common and so much more, but it was also the time I knew he never liked me. Not in the romantic way I hoped he would. Because if he did, he'd make a way.

The last time I saw him was on his wedding day. I invited myself (with my supportive girlfriends and no, we didn't go inside the church) outside the church and right on time as the priest introduced him and his wife as a newly wedded couple.

I wanted to do that as closure on my part. So at least I know I said goodbye.

And as I write this, I have NO regrets.

Because, if not for him or the experience, I wouldn't learn love, basketball and heartaches.

I wish I could say he was the one that got away, but he isn't. How could you lose someone you never had? Officially.

So thank you left handed guy. You may never know this, and I may forget the kilig i felt with you, but I will always remember that one time in my life with a smile on my face.


i know this, much is true.

fangirling

I'm not sure if it's wise to write about my "fangirling" over AlDub.

But this whole experience has brought out a lot of emotions over this momma.

As part of my 2016 to-do, I wanted to write more. Write back, like the way i used to. And so...

I got curious about the phenomenal Kalyeserye tandem when picture of them 5 years ago came out. The Candy Fair picture. I told myself, if this were true, Maine's reaction when she saw Alden on the split screen was REAL.

I remember sending/creating a  group message over Facebook to my self confessed AlDubnation friends. and first question was, "so crush ni Maine si Alden noon pa?" with the disclaimer that "I'm just curious".

The question was because it didn't make sense to me before, of why Maine would react soooo kilig when she saw Alden watching her dubsmash if it was the first time she saw him.

Through the course of the chat, they encouraged me to watch the episode where it started it all. If you want to watch it, here's the link:

KalyeSerye July 16,2015

One episode led to another, and I found myself hooked.

I would watch replays before I sleep. When I discovered how to live stream, I would "LS". I participated in the "twitter party", I activated the notifications on my twitter and Instagram for Maine and Alden and fans who would have updates by the hour/minute.

It was crazy. Still is.

I like that THEY (people behind the KalyeSerye) make an effort in making sure a lesson is learned from their episodes. Like chivalry, Filipino traditions and customs, love for the family, and forgiveness.

If you'll ask me,I'm more of a fan of Maine than Alden. (no offense) The guy is great and all, pero kay Meng ako aliw na aliw. Natatawa at bilib na bilib.

But the success of their tandem should be given to them both, equally.

So I question myself, why am I sooo kilig on a guy who's tisoy and super mabait ?(everyone who has worked with him/had an encounter with him says so. consistently says so).

Knowing myself, I prefer Moreno and bad boy looking guys. The kind you don't want to bring home to momma. hehehe

Until there was a video shared by another fan, where Alden was signing a wall. I knew he was left handed, but this was the first time I saw him write.

This instant kind of reminded me of a guy I liked before. He was left handed, was great in Math and was white as a bond paper.

coz maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me
and after all
you're my wonderwall

momma diary 1

I'm not even gonna try.

I gave birth to an 8.9lbs baby girl February of 2012. To say that my life has changed is an understatement.

It's true when they say, it's LOVE like no other.

I look at her sleep and tell myself, how come I deserved this? This little tigress who wants no one but me. Imagine the happiness when she was finally able to call me "MOM".

And the delight in my eyes, whenever I speak of her.

If you're pregnant and reading this, or about to, or you have one or two or four already...Cheers! You're one hella of a woman.

I'm still learning everyday. Learning from her mostly. Trying so hard because she deserves nothing but the BEST. (so future suitor/boyfriend, make sure you are ready to meet her MOM!)

I broke down once in front of her, and she calmly held me, and softly said, "don't cry mom, it's ok". Yah, those were the wise words of my 3 year-old. And those words reassured me that I'm doing well as a parent.

You'll lose patience, you will also ask WHY this is happening to me, all I want is to be a good mother. That's also when you will realize not to be hard on yourself, you could be worse but hey you're not! haha

There are also LAZY days, and it's ok. You're human.

But my most favorite is when it's just the two of you, about to go to sleep, and she squishes to be close to you and holds your face with her tiny hands and says, "just me and mom".

No matter how many tantrums and NO yells she has thrown, she remains to be your baby.

Always.

Bucky's not a Brownie

 

I first saw this on Instagram and the name made me curious of how it's gonna taste.

 

Then by fate, I got a chance to have a taste of this wonderful creation.

 

 

 

 

Not overwhelmingly sweet, chewy enough that you want to get another bite.

 

This box did not last that long on our fridge, which could only mean we ALL loved it.

 

Don't just take my word for it. Experience and Enjoy!

 

You can check out Bucky’s website, like Bucky’s on Facebook, and follow Bucky’s on Tumblr and on Instagram.

 

For orders, you can get in touch with Miguel Vargas at 0917 844 5104 or at miguel@buckysnotabrownie.com.

What I order

Penne Al Telefono from CiBo

 

 

French Toast from Breakfast at Antonio's

 

Pizza from Gino's (forgot its name)

 

Black Velvet Cake from Mary Grace

 

 

 

good for the soul

This year i have finally accomplished a goal -- fasting for the Lenten Season. 

I am giving up eating rice until easter sunday as I take penance and pray for guidance. 

I feel good about being able to this exercise to discipline myself and offer a little bit of my being human to God. 

Thank you God for the opportunity to do this, my spirits are up and full of positivity. 

next year i might give up Coffee *we'll see*

bag lady?

I like this as it reminds me of the Celine luggage bag. 

I've put hold on ordering this as I think this is not a good time to buy another bag when my Lola had given me two bags for pasalubong last Christmas. 

This would be also be nice to use everyday for the office. Looks simple and smart

And this one is a fun-nice-to-have bag for summer or when you just want to feel young and hip. Haha